so.. we're like.. getting married and stuff

ster:
our wedding is in 2 days. TWO DAYS! and here we are.. blogging. HA! it's weird. i was completely freaking out on monday, but i've come to realize that i was just pms'ing. seriously. cause i've been completely fine ever since. the weirder part is.... i've already seen family and friends who live across the country and it's like my brain hasn't processed just exactly what the hell they're doing here. i know it sounds crazy, but i'm wondering if i don't really realize that they are here for US. i mean, i'm getting married. but part of me is clueless. like i haven't put it all together. maybe it's because i still have gift bags to make? and maybe it's because i'm at my mom's house, instead of at our hotel room where the ceremony and reception will take place.. or maybe it's because I AM A TOTAL AND COMPLETE FREAK?!?!?!!

point:
well you are a total and complete freak. thats already a given. but ive been alittle wierd myself. i dont fully realize that its coming, that this thing i started over 2 years ago is going to pass. like i dont even know its here. that my wedding is in 2 days. but at the say time when i remind myself that we are getting married in to days i get giddy. like stupid little boy giddy. if only you didnt have to bring down all my happiness this past week when i would do my morning countdown. "honey....5 more days...." before i would see this cute smile and now.......i get a shutup.....

note to self: dont show anymore emotion.